Wednesday, August 24, 2011

earthly treasures

after 12 years, i decided that it's time to repaint our bedrooms. then we had to take out all our stuff and i realized that i had accumulated so many things over the past years. unbelief was my first reaction because i always followed the policy of getting rid of one stuff if i buy something. i guess it did not work.

i should live by this:


(picture from: http://www.biblepicturegallery.com/Pictures/Moneywar.htm)

Don’t collect for yourselves treasures on earth, where moth and rust destroy and where thieves break in and steal. But collect for yourselves treasures in heaven, where neither moth nor rust destroys, and where thieves don’t break in and steal. For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also.
Matthew 6:19-21 HCSB

Tuesday, August 23, 2011

giggles and laughter

while agonizing how long till i can wash my hair (keratin treatment post), my mood was slowly getting dark. then i heard kyla giggling and raymund laughing heartily while watching wiped out. i realized how "mababaw" shallow i am. i was the one who decided to have the keratin treatment and the consequent 72-hours no shampoo condition, so i have to grin and bear my greasy hair.

BUT, in fairness, my scalp and hair are not so oily this time, oscar blandi really works! have to get more of it.


keratin treatment

I have fine, limp hair that gets oily at the roots but is so dry at the ends that it gets frizzy when I do not blow dry and style it. Having done the keratin treatment twice in the past and very satisfied with the result, I did it again two days ago.

Now, It's been 50 hours since I last washed my hair but who's counting?? Me, that's who!!! I couldn't last more than 48 hours without washing my hair and keratin treatment specifically prohibits washing your hair for 72 hours upon first application. That's why it takes me a long time between treatments. I hate the oily/greasy hair effect.

Fortunately, I was more prepared this time, I have read about on how to use dry shampoo, and luckier still that I have Oscar Blandi dry shampoo on hand. Sue enough, my scalp was less oilier this time, and I only have 22 hours more to go till my next shampoo.

Can't wait!!

Monday, August 8, 2011

sorry again and goodbye

we learned that you passed away while we were on our way to watch a movie. at first i thought raymund was just fooling around with the caller as he is fond of making weird sounds when talking to his friends. but when he suddenly cried, i know someone very close to him has died. i heard him say that the body was found in the office, and i could only think of two persons who would work on a saturday afternoon - tato and tiny.

when i learned that it was you, tato, who passed away, a wave of emotions washed over me. i felt guilt, sadness and shame.

guilt because i never really told you that i forgave you.

sadness because you passed away without knowing that i am eternally grateful for the gift you had given to raymund and me

shame because of the manner i treated you. i am so sorry. my words are mere hollow sounds because you are not here to hear them....

we had our differences and i have been unkind towards you in the past as you have also been unkind towards me, but to be fair, you were unkind to me ONLY once.

we last saw each other about 4 months ago and it was a hurried dinner for us all. you greeted me and i also chatted with you for a few minutes.

if i had known that you will be gone in a few months, i would have been kinder, i would have let you know that all is well between us. i am sorry, again.

the good husband


Saturday afternoon, it was raining when we had coffee. You held the umbrella with one arm and with your other arm, held me close to protect me from the rain. After coffee, you walked me to the passenger's side and again held the umbrella with one hand and opened the door with the other hand.

On Sunday, you opened the passenger door when I was about to go down.

I couldn't hide my surprise as you have never done this in the past. We have been together since we were 16 years old, more than half of our lives. Being demonstrative and chivalrous were never your trait.

I guess separation brought by work has its upside, it made you more affectionate and loving.

I love you back.

Wednesday, August 3, 2011

Why am I so tired.

I feel so tired today :( I couldn't breath, my body feels as if it is being squeezed. I Felt depressed. My carpal tunnel didn't help either. I could not even lift a folder.

I went home still feeling depressed but as soon as I changed my clothes, it's as if the whole burden was lifted off. It's then I realized that I had taken off my SPANX!!!