happiness

i miss my best friend, she went abroad hoping to find a better job and a better relationship, or so i thought. she was in a long-distance relationship with her "boyfriend" here and it seemed that it was going nowhere.

sometimes when we chat she would tell me she's very lonely and wish that she would find that someone in her life. i dare not say that having someone to love you does not define you, but it would seem insensitive coming from someone who has been married for more than a decade and still is in love with her husband.

i thought that she had let go of her "boyfriend" but the guy appeared in her horizon again, giving her hopes of happily ever after. i kept my mouth shut fearing her resentment on my comments. i wished her the best despite the lingering doubts. when i greeted her this christmas my heart broke when she said that the guy hasn't communicated with her AGAIN!!! it happened in the past, her "boyfriend" failing to call, write, or even text her for more than six months but still she persisted. i didn't know what to say. she said that she ran a few miles even when the temp was going to the 20s, and this is no joke for people raised in the tropics.

a few days ago, she left a message in my YM, telling me that she is ok, her exact words "i'm ok, xxx called". that's it.

i am dumbfounded. i can only recall a few lines i read in the past

"never put your happiness in someone's hands, always put it in your hands so it is always within your reach"

my dear friend, i treasure your friendship, thus, i will not make any comments about your "boyfriend", but be assured that i will always pray for your happiness.